I wonder how long more i can endure .

I reali so sick and tired of it .

I did not complain , i did not compare .

Ppl brought the topic up ,

Y do they have to make it sounds like i'm a troublemaker .

I reali dun understand .

How many time muz i tell them tt i didn't .

Pls understand .

I reali reali reali tired .

I cant take it anymore .

Any more , i gonna leave .

Is too tiring .

It's madness .

I cant believe they even raise their voice at Yvonne Goh .

A manager and a Senior SCP raise their voice at a materials director .

Is too much .

It makes me feel reali bad .

It makes me feel like i cause all these chaos .

Wrk is too chaotic .

Sometime ppl dun understand .

Y i didnt fight back for my right ,

is not tt i dun wan .

But i'm still young and new in there .

No matter wat i shld respect them .

I cannot raise my voice back at my boss .

I noe i'm lousy .

But i'm reali sorry .

I can nv bring myself to raise my voice at my boss .

Haix .

I'm thinkin of tendering .

But when .

I dun wanna be fired .

Is better to tender than fired .

At least the record is gd .

Haix .

= Pls leave me alone . =

Leen .
8:47 PM

blahx ..

i bloody hate wrk .

Cried ytd .

Job is soo terrible .

I wonder how long more i can endure .

I hate them .

But i love the money .

Left wrk at 530pm sharp .

Went to TM and meet poon .

Watch SPIDERMAN3 .

Keke .

Super nice .

Especially watchin it wit poon .

Watch half way too tired .

SLpt for 10 mins .

Then suddenly snore .

Haha.

Then poon woke me up .

REali enjoy foolin in the cinema .

I love POON .

She make my day happy .

Today wrk super stress .

Meetin wit Siew Ling .

Gosh .

Haix.

Look like wrk sux .

Siti got blame , due to wendy kp mouth .

Haiz .

Sux .

Is time to look for a new job .

= i hate feelings=

Leen .
10:07 PM

Lots of things happen ,

- went out wit jerry .
- understand jerry feelings .
- went to ikea wit jerry , siti and poon .
- got Shingles .
- stress at wrk .
- struggle like madness .

Went CLubbin last nite .

Is like one of the best of all time .

We played way too over le .

But it was fun la .

I muz reali thanx Austin for being there for us la .

I'll try to love myself more .

Sorry if i disappoint u .

It ain't easy for me .

It tough puttin it down .

Love , rejection . SUX !!!

I hate myself .

=I can nv accept love , rejection=

Leen .
8:36 PM

First , do PI till bout 3 am .

Then ytd woke up bout 12 plus .

WAke jerry and poon up .

Went to eat sakae ,

then went to tm and meet siti .

Slack ard till bout 1 plus .

Chatted alot wit jerry .

Feel sad for him la .

CAn see tt he is reali lost .

He doesnt noe wat to do .

I cant reali help him much la .

ALl i could do was to keep him company ,

try my ver best to make him feel happy .

The wrld is damn cruel la .

I wanna go see doc .

But becuz is rainin i'm damn lazy la .

Sian .

= the wrld is so cruel=

Leen .
1:31 PM

Went MOS last nite .

I almost died .

I went to wrk at 9 am .

HAha .

1 hr late .

But lucky nobody was ard .

Everyone was at meeting .

Tml gonna be PI day .

ARgh .

I better slp early today .

Like now ??

Ya .

If not i'm gonna turn panda .

Wanted to load pic .

ARgh .

Sunday bahx .

Tml PI till mayb mid-nite .

Then saturday OT .

Then sunday OT .

Then sunday nite rest .

Sux .

= nitex=

Leen .
11:10 PM

Haven been to wrk for some days .

When to wrk as normal - late .

On my com , settle down .

Out of sudden ,

san san stood up and gave me an envelope .

Quite colourful .

Wit some signature on .

Then she told me it was a voucher .

Quite shock .

Secretly open up when nobody ard .

GOsh .

It's a $50 addias voucher .

Quite touched wor .

Wrk for less than 2 mths ,

got voucher .

Haha .

Finally they appreciate me .

Dun reali noe wats the reason behind it .

Whether its gd or bad ,

at least it did cheer me up la .

Yeah ,

i can buy tt addias bag tt i initially wanted to buy .

But cha cha told me to go and buy a new addias shoe ,

instead of wearing a fake one .

Still thinkin bout it .

But seriously i dun like the original design too .

I prefer being a fako !!!

This is like the onli job ,

i'm afraid to lose .

Mayb this job is well paid ,

near my house and i've alot of fren .

Tired .

Leen .
10:08 PM

I've got myself a PSP .

Pretty happy . "at first"

Realise owning a PSP not easy .

But too bad ,

i bought it cant be exchange ,

or refund .

So tml gotta go buy game and memo card for it .

Glad to noe wy is back .

Miss her alot .

I wanna crap wit her .

I miss Poon too .

Hope to see u soon .

I bought some crazy stuff for Poon .

Though is not veri ex ,

but i hope she likes it .

= PSP PINK=

Leen .
2:05 AM

3rd day of nt goin to wrk .

Doesn't feel nice .

Body lerthagic like wt .

I got no energy .

Tooth ache like madness.

But still i'm goin out for a walk .

Haha .

Daryl smsed me this morning .

He was askin if i quit alreadi or wat?

haha !

But my boss was kinda bad too la .

She should have inform them .

BUt forget it la .

WAit till i'm back .

I'll do the xplanation .

Sianx.

I cant eat on my right for the moment .

Aiyoo .

Sux rite.

DAmn pain .

Like swollen .

Omg !!

Argh .

GOtta go out le .

Mummy is awake .

Better siam first .

Wait kena kp .

=Toothache sux=

Leen .
11:48 AM

OMG !!!

I'm sick .

I got skin allergy .

Help me pls ......

It's so itchy !!!

I can't take it .

ARGH !!!

Pls i got tooth ache .

My teeth tryin to grow ,

but no space .

Squeeze like madness .

Worst than smoove .

At least when smoove alot of ppl there is still space to breathe .

But now my gum veri tight .

Super pain .

Cannot chew .

I muz eat porridge la !!

Wa lao .

Talkin bout eating porridge ,

it always remind me of mizan .

His porridge joke .

Aiyoo , i miss mizan .

I'm feelin reali bad now .


[11:10:38 PM] cecilia goh says: so stay healthy, u get to keep yr pay.
[11:10:48 PM] Eileen .. says: ya lo and finish all my wrk
[11:11:22 PM] cecilia goh says: do not complain, yr team member is not happy abt it.
[11:12:50 PM] Eileen .. says: let them hate me la
[11:13:02 PM] Eileen .. says: i dun see any need y i shld pls anyone
[11:13:31 PM] cecilia goh says: do not have attitude problem.
[11:13:39 PM] Eileen .. says: i have mehx ??
[11:13:47 PM] Eileen .. says: i think the pot callin the kettle black
[11:14:22 PM] cecilia goh says: hope u do not have but this is what yr team member told alice.
[11:14:46 PM] Eileen .. says: hmm if they reali feel so then i got nthin to say lo ..
[11:14:56 PM] Eileen .. says: different ppl have different point of view
[11:15:06 PM] Eileen .. says: who cares wat others think of me
[11:15:08 PM] Eileen .. says: let it be
[11:15:17 PM] Eileen .. says: i live to be who i am
[11:15:23 PM] cecilia goh says: ok,just prove they are wrong. anything go to alice to discuss if u think is not right.
[11:15:24 PM] Eileen .. says: not the person tt who ppl wans
[11:15:38 PM] Eileen .. says: i nv reali tok to anyone in my team at all
[11:15:57 PM] Eileen .. says: since they find me wit attiude problem
[11:16:04 PM] Eileen .. says: y dun they wan to switch ??
[11:16:13 PM] Eileen .. says: let the new AA go over to their team
[11:16:20 PM] Eileen .. says: let me go over la ..
[11:16:37 PM] cecilia goh says: they will not swtich u, but will aks u to go.
[11:16:50 PM] Eileen .. says: erm .. is tt wat they say ??
[11:16:56 PM] cecilia goh says: they do not want people to pick and chose which team they want to go.
[11:16:59 PM] Eileen .. says: if true then i shld start lookin for another job le
[11:17:40 PM] cecilia goh says: think properly. other place may not take u because u are young.
[11:17:50 PM] cecilia goh says: u will end up working as operator .
[11:18:08 PM] cecilia goh says: so bear with it and do your best in yr job.
[11:18:17 PM] Eileen .. says: i'm doin my best
[11:18:29 PM] Eileen .. says: the most simple reason y they dislike me
[11:18:39 PM] Eileen .. says: they dislike ppl who i mix wit
[11:18:46 PM] Eileen .. says: cuz they ar arrogant assssss
[5/1/2007 11:19:09 PM] cecilia goh says: u are too close to me. so we have to stay far away.
[5/1/2007 11:19:35 PM] cecilia goh says: ok, go to sleep now. i have to do some packing before i go to bed.
[5/1/2007 11:19:39 PM] Eileen .. says: ya ..
[5/1/2007 11:19:50 PM] Eileen .. says: nitexxxxxxxxxxxxx
[5/1/2007 11:19:54 PM] cecilia goh says: dont think so much,ok.
[5/1/2007 11:19:55 PM] cecilia goh says: nite..

In actual fact .

I think i'm a winner le .

I got determination .

I got perserverance .

Not bad rite .

I changed to be a better .

I shld thks them instead .

But i can't reali be bother them .

Seriously la .

I live for myself and ppl hu love me .

Nt for them .

SO FYI .

I'm veri happy wit my life .

So too bad .

Either i get fired .

Or they endure me .

Or even better they get new AA and fired me !!!

Though is sad to leave such a gd job la .

But juz take it as a lesson in life la .



=Life isn't tt bad after all=

Leen .
12:51 AM

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