Went housing board wit mummy .

Yikes .

Waited veri long .

When am i goin to be free??

everyday hangin ard wit mummy .

My gum hurts .

Oooch .

Thursday gotta see doctor ,

hopefully can get my leg cure asap .

Hmmm ..

I have got not much mood to blog .

Kinda moody .

Emo !!

Leen .
3:41 AM

Went mos on sat nite for family outing .



Sound weird rite ??



Lolx ..



Is kinda fun actually .



Cuz we drank alot .



I went ard alone lookin for ppl to dance wit la .



But all too old le .



Plus tt day super lots of indian men la .



Ah jie fren was there too .



We order red ice .



Red ice kinda ex wor ..



$16 .



But it was 1 for 1 when we order .



So .. still okie la .



But veri nice , taste sweet .



Alot of mixture , barcardi , sprite , coke and etc .



Hehe ..



Ah jie fren derrek order vodka red bull .



I dun reali like it .



Kinda sour .



Taste a bit like cough syrup .



Bored .



TOday have to go over to cousin house for dinner .



Bored .







hehe .. look wat i found .


Blahx ..

Leen .
3:33 PM

Poon pls dun be sick .

I'm so sad tt i couldnt be by poon when she sick .

Sorry .

Was drag to go out wit mummy .

Now i'm not feelin any better either .

Nose block .

Feel like vomiting .

Supposly was slpin from 10 plus .

But ..

bout 1 plus i kept waking up .

Juz kept turning and tossing ard .

Sux rite .

Tml still gotta wake up at 9 plus in the morning .

Omg .

Cny aint reali any special day or wat ever .

Have been home except for first day of cny ,

went to grandma house for one hr plus onli .

Then came home for cny .

And ...

It's all bout mahjong and eating .

Second day ,

wake up , eat , go temple and then eat and mahjong again .

Its like tt almost everyday la .

Third day no temple la .

Everyday eat , mahjong and slp .

Wat a boring cny .

Mummy say next yr cny dun wan to stay in sg le .

WOnder i should be happy or sad.

My family is juz like a disater .

Drifted sooo apart .

I felt so hurt and painful ,

each and everytime i saw daddy back .

I wish i could see him smile more often .

Somethings kids juz cant do anything bout it .

Haix..

Gotta go watch hana kimi le .

I wanna see wy and poon soon .

Keke .

Leen .
1:42 AM

Cny ..

Nthin reali special .

Cny is all bout eat , drink and mahjong ..

Keeeeeeeeeeee.

Leen .
12:49 AM

total depresss .

I'm feelin so bad .

Nthin makes me feel better .

Juz leave me alone and let me be .

Damn ass it .

TOday one damn big fellow step on my toes .

Ouch !!

Knn .

My toe bleed k .

She bloody big size lo .

She juz slimmer but shes huge k .

One head taller .

Plus shes wearing heels .

Ass it .

Bless her fingers kena kiap by the door .

All the best to my frens and all .

Reali wish for a veri happy new yr .

Dun worry bout me .

i wun die .

Leen .
10:41 PM

Too much .. too much le .

It's over .

I cant breath .

I'm sturgglin to earn money..

I'm so sad.

I'm too depressed .

Sorry poon .

I'm juz hate myself for not being able to be myself .

I'm like a puppet of others .

Being push ard .

I'm often push by bull and my mum .

I try to wrk reali reali hard .

But each and everytime they would ask me to company them and not go to wrk.

I muz admit tt i can reali take it when ppl say negative things bout me .

But i seriously struggle alot .

THough i cant stant it when aunties yell at me .

BUt i bare wit it .

All becuz of money .

I wish i got better pr at wrk .

All this yrs ..

my pr has been dropping .

I juz hope i got a better pr to make me love my job .

I'm juz wish i dun turn into a useless ass .

Sorry poon .

Watever i've own u .

I'll pay u asap .

And dun ever borrow me any money le .

Sorry .

I'm juz a burden to u .

Leen .
9:28 PM

I'm soo mean .

St msg me to tell me bout her result .

but i didnt even reply or call her .

i duno wat should i say to her .

Haix..

i dun trust her like the past .

She use to be one of veri besties .

But now , its over .

i miss my babe .

Cny coming .

Keke ...

Leen .
2:17 AM

I miss bull sooo much la .

Suddenly i feel sooo damn in love wit bull .

Tots after tots ,

i finally come to a conclusion .

I should live for myself and not others .

I should not throw my ass damn emo over my family .

I should wrk fuckin hard ,

onli then my dreams would be fufil .

Though times mayb tough ,

i juz got to endure .

No one in the wrld succed without goin through hard wrk .

Money will nv drop from the sky ,

dreams can nv come to u automatically .

U have to go search for it .

Jiayou man .

Leen .
5:05 AM

Suddenly i felt like a mountain tortoise .

I duno reali noe much bout the wrld .

Is as though i juz woke up from a coma .

I lost my frens and everythin .

Scaryyyyyyyy .

Wheres poon and wy ??

We've not been contactin for days .

Ar we drifted ??

Y does poon says tt friends turn to foes .

Is she sayin someone else or me ??

Y hasn't she call me ??

or y didn't i call her .

Hmm .. anyway i reali miss them sooooooo much .

I got 2 cut on 2 different finger .

yikes .

I got my nails cut durin wrk ,

it bleeds and now .

i lost 1/8 of my nails .

DAmn pain la .

Imagine nail bed wit nails .

Yikes , juz the flesh .

hurts .

Got my another finger stuck at the my frigde ,

while tryin to clean and i pull it out .

And the skin came off .

Oucchhhh ...

Tt hurts alot too .

I try cuttin my F*** "chicken eye " ,

ouchhh again .

Bloody hell pain la .

I hurt myself alot recently .

I miss bull , i nv seen him for days ,

haven been contacting him for days .

Sob sob .

No kisses , no huggies .

BOred .

Yeah , anyway this damn ass amin .

Kept msgin me recently .

ya ... same old reason .

SEX .

Wth , lust .

Fuck off .

Get ur bloody gf to help u then .

Wat u take me as .

U need sex ,

u kept comin to me for it .

Wat u take me for ,

when i needed help the most .

U turn me off .

So ya .

Karma !!

Tt's how the wrld wrks .

I'm not any small kid anymore .

Onces bitten ,

twice shy .

Izzit ??

Aiya .. the phrase ..

is something like tt la .

u all noe de la .

Need not be so specific .

And its my blog i noe can le .

Anyway ,

I'm not any dumb ass anymore ,

i understand wat life is .

Sex can be fun but ...

sex can turn into a mistake too .

I still have bull to satisifed me .

SO its okie .

I wish i didnt noe him from the first place .

Each and everytime i heard bout things from tre ppl .

I reali find it sux la .

I cant take it when i see ppl i hate ,

do better than me .

Erm .. i dun mean looks .

Erm .. not in terms of money .

ya .. anyway tt bloody F*** aziwan got his motor licence and bike .

Ya so ..

I can't stand it seeing tt bitch gettin gd life .

Ermm .. i mean gettin high and gd wit aziwan .

And i wish aziwan stay poor for his rest of his life .

U noe y ,

cuz i cant stand the way he look down on others .

Especially his besties .

And most important he back stab others .

DAmn ass hypocrite .

I curse him to fall off the bike wit tt bitch .

BLahx .

God i'll do more gd deeds to cover the swearing of others .

how bout i go sweep the temple floor ??

Hehe ...

I wish bull can be bless and be rich .

I wan ppl ard me to have gd life .

Pls ..

god bless ,

first me , richer , prettier , slimmer and smarter .

Second my family , all can be rich rich .

Third poon can be rich rich , have a gd relationship and always pass her exam .

Fourth wy , stay rich forever , be pretty forever and her dreams come true la .

pls la .

me , ah jie , mummy , laopa , uncle , poon , bull & wy onlie .

Not alot rite .

Pls bless us .

Thkx .

Leen .
2:55 AM

3 more days to go .

Endure endure and endure .

yikes .

Leen .
1:15 AM

Leen .
12:07 AM

Mother cheeeeee byeeeeee .

Could i hug , cry and jump down .

Haven reali found any gd places .

Sea not as great ,

cuz i can swim .

Towner heights is gd ,

tall enough - 40 storey .

Can experience once in a life time thingy .

And possibility to die is 100% .

Is not tt i can think ,

i think too much .

I've been through too much.

I dun wan to go through this over and over again .

Pls let me off .

This is a night mare .

Or mayb worst .

I juz wish to die .

It's over .

* btw my line has been cut , so i can't call or sms .
anything , juz sms me or call me . thks .

Leen .
9:27 PM

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