Today mummy annouced tt we'll be goin to Tawian after CNY .
How am i goin to tell her when she said tt ??
Should i juZ give up the hope of studyin ??
ANd juz slog for the rest of my life ??
Or should i pluck up my tiny courage to ask her ??
SOmetime i feel like giving up ,
but the moment i think bout my future .
I tell myself i musn't give up .
I muz be someone useful ,
for my love one i shall wrk hard .
Its reali tough keepin it .
I should juz ask her ,
at least after i have ask her , i got an answer.
Be it yes or no , at least i can plan wat i shld do next .
Unlike now , stuck in no where .
But i'm afraid she may say no to it .
She may pour wet blanket .
Haiz.. sometime mummy is reali hard to understand .
SOmetimes she loves me alot ,
sometimes she super fierce to me.
She even want to buy me the Lancome foundation tt shes using now.
I love mummy , i love daddy .
Mummy and daddy , dun get along .
I try my best to pair them up .
Sometimes when i see daddy get yell by mummy ,
my heart seriously break.
The sight of daddy wrkin so hard for us , reali breaks my hearts.
Family love is always the most important things to me .
Without them i'm nthing .
Daddy b'dae is next mth ,
i feel like bringin him out .
But i have to courage to tell him .
Treating the person u love gd , isn't easy .
i'm too emotional .
I hopes to be strong .
I'm tryin to be strong .
I regret too much .
I've countless regret .
But for one thing i noe ,
i try to make myself live better than the past .
I nv wanna look back at my regrets.
But i cant , i cant forgive myself for not studyin hard in the past .
My reackless behaviour ,
my F.O atittude .
WTH .. I'm so bad in the past
.
FOr all those i've hurt , i'm seriously sorry .
I'm changin to be a better person .
I'll be a great person in the future .
For those hu look down on me !!
We shall see ...
Y
Leen .