Feeling kinda heart breaking .
Juz got my things pack .
Not slpin .
Recently got contacted wit Sheng Hua .
First we contact through friendster msg .
It reali sux i swear.
Cuz if u ask the other party a question ,
u onli get the answer the veri next day .
Suck up rite ??
So he ask for my msn add.
We added each other , chat quite alot.
Then out of sudden Sheng Hua told me he saw Aik Chee tt day at MOs .
Gosh ~~ I swear my heart was tearing .
I nv reali have any chance to see him .
All this yr , i try to forget him .
I try to forget every trace bout him .
But i juz couldn't .
The feelin i have for him is pretty different .
Mayb his so different from the rest .
I wonder y too .
I find myself so afraid of love .
I nv dare to go into any relationship .
I swear i'm so afraid .
I gave Ryan and chance .
But he broke it .
He serious make me worst .
Now i'm nv gonna fall in love .
I'm so afraid of love .
I wonder y .
It seems so scary .
I'm so afraid of men .
I feel yucks to kiss other guys .
I feel yucks to hug other guys .
I wonder anything or anyone could heal it .
I miss being in love .
But each and everytime i think of givin anyone a chance .
I'm so afraid .
So much worries .
So much tots .
I wonder how long it gonna take for me to over come this .
Haiz.. Feelin reali down .
Gonna slp , still gotta wrk up at 1pm.
Now is 5.45 am le .
Sick .
= Heartbroken =
Y
Leen .