Ytd went town wit wy, wei yang , poon and fs . We had our dinner at crystal jade , but i didn't eat anythin . I was busy lookin at the guy sittin next to my table ! haha ! Damn it wei yang , he ask us not to look at handsome hunks , wat de !! I think most of the time his the want tt look at pretty babes !! argh !! Town seems to get more and more boring .
We went over to grapevine , while waiting for shin and gj to come over we play some cards game . Wei yang suggested tt the loser shall finish up 1/2 cup of foster beer . Haha !! Wat a stinky suggestion , in the end he lost . Haha !! I use my lucky method from preventing myself to lose . Well its seems a little bit nonsense , but it isn't k . Haha!! I didn't lost at all . I learn a bit of pool skill from gj , i find myself a real impatient person . I have not even learn for 10 mins and i got fed up for not being able to play well .
I think i reali have to believe this , i am so down in luck . Recently i seems to break lots of things , i broke my specs, plates and NOW my flats !! Oh man !! Wats this !! A little bit of fuck-up feeling !! Things spoil nvm , there's a phrase call - old things dun go , new things wun come . But i am reali irritated when wy accidentally spill the beer on my jeans . Beer can get reali stink on clothes . Oh man !! It's oki , i am not angry wit her , i noe she didn't mean it . Overall i did enjoy myself ytd .
Early in the mornin i was bout to slp , my mums wakes up . And she kept sayin i am selfish , wat so ever . Gosh !! Any rules saying tt - when slpin hp ringing tone have to be put to either slient or vibrate ?? Y am i gettin scolded for tt ?? So wat my sis is feelin unwell , i didnt chase her to slp in the livin room . Y izzit my fault ?? So wat i use my hp ! If is becuz i was on the phone , then fuckin throw my hp away . I WON die without a hp .
If i have to live juz to pls ppl . I would rather die ! Serious no joke ! I am born to be a slave . Britney spears , song called - i am a slave for u , suits me ! To think 'bout it i haven reali have a life of princess . Since the day i was born ppl dislike me , juz becuz i didnt look like my dad . I am starting to hate myself even more . Who in this world doesnt wan the best for themself ?? I love to study , i like reading , i love getting gd grades . But sch simply juz cant study , i try to go home and revise my wrk , but its worst i think . I got yell for burning mid-nite oil and force to off the light , juz becuz its a waste of electric . I wan tuition , but afraid to speak up , i noe it myself if i ask for tuition my parents will fight over who will pay . I hate it !! Tt's the reason when i have tuition i reali have to put in double hard wrk , cuz i fight reali hard for it . I wonder anyone on earth will fight to have tuition. I wan to further my studies but nobody seems bother , no one payin , no ones seems to care how i feel . Well then , since this its like this i shall do wat i wan . I wan to go wher my problem , i go home anot oso none of ur business . I'll make myself the queen of my house , i say yes nobody can say no . Dun say i am nasty , atittude problem or wat so ever , u brought it . I am nice to everyone , i nv ask for anything . I juz wan ppl to treat me nicer. Dun make nasty comments can .
When i am wit bull , i am accuse of being mean to him . When i broke off wit him , i am heartless . When we ar together , i will stay poor forever if i wan to stick wit him . Wats all tt , break up - heartless , together - no future poor , wash backside . SO wat ppl got rich bf , nv even see be4 mayb its a lie . I hate it ! Nvm , i will marry a man i dun like . As long as got enough money to feed me . Old oso nvm , i think tt way ppl will feel happier . I hate chinese new yr . Ppl say relative is kin , "pui" i am not ur kin ! I am not ur slim gang kin ! I have my own fat kin ! I hate my relative alot . Tt apply onli to my father side ! I look like a dumb ass infront of them , i hate to go over to my grandma place . I dun understand y greed juz tt little amount and get nag , i rather not gettin a single cent and have peace . All this yr becuz of sis i muz go . The next chinese new yr , i tell myself no matter wat i wun go . I bet they will be happy without a fat kin like me .
I got lots of house wrk to do , startin from wake up , pack bed , wash wat ever bowls or plate tt ppl nv wash , then vacumn the floor . Lastly wait for ppl to bathe finish and wash clothes . I am maria !
I hate the wrld , everyone , myself , u !!
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Leen .