I am stress and pressurize . But by wat , i dunno ! I muz start saving money for holidays and school . Oh ya ! I have decided if i have enough money i'm gonna shift out from my house . Ppl may think i'm crazy but i have tot bout it for veri long . I wanna try being independant without my parents . I depend on my parents too much . And i wan a life of my own ! Freedom !
Come to think bout times i have wasted was reali silly . I could have done lots of things during this period . To be urself , is not easy . Even frens and frens do have secret between each other. To fall for a person is easy , to let him noe , is reali a problem .If i have no feeling how would it be like ? Izzit too late to say i regretted enterin into a relationship . If times could turn back i would hate the person i have use to love . I would treat ppl as evil as how they treated me . I will not make fren wit ppl tt chose a guy than me !
I understand tt nobody is perfect , but i treasure all my frens , i try to keep them all by me . But as yrs goes by , i start losin all my frens . Will i be a loner ?? Will i have no fren?? Will ppl start to dislike me ?? I dun see anything important pushing me to live on . My relationship was a disaster, my frenship seems like a volcano , goin to erupt any moment .
I reali hate to be happy . Is all a lie , after a slp everything will be total different . I hate memo , they make u more upset. I rather stay as usual . I hate ppl tellin me unity , is a lie . I onli heard of seperation . Life is all bout selfishness , there's no sharing . Dun ever smile to me , the more u smile to me , the more u break my heart .
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Leen .